“Invest in yourself completely this weekend and commit to everything you can receive and you will be a different person when you leave.” That is the promise of Kristi and Matt Trede’s Burnout to Balance Retreat held at The Welcome to the Big House, 24-27 November 2016. I was not disappointed, having decided that I was ready for some change. As such, I did commit to everything and as such experienced some excited shifts, some which I am still processing.
This is a piece I wrote a couple of years ago. As I re read it, I was struck how resonant it was to be about the retreat. I remembered my own fear at speaking my pain, and observing the look in some of the eyes of the other women. Trying to find the courage and the words to say what our heart wanted to speak, but fearful of releasing them into the world. For some the hesitation was not fear, but the akwardness of the “getting to know you” in a group still wearing their “L PLATES”!
For many years I have been on a path of learning. I left school early, married young and made beautiful babies, and ultimately chose to live separately from my boys’ father after eighteen years. Caring for three young boys required a good return on time invested, so a return to study was needed to lift my qualifications and earning capacity. I commenced tentatively and managed to juggle the demands of work, study and sole parenthood. As I completed each necessary qualification and applied the learning in my vocation, I always found myself presented with new opportunities to explore, new spaces I could enter into and learn to inhabit. New identities I could try on.